Inspired: The Movie
PCOS, support and a nugget of truth
One of my Diva friends linked to a new site today. As some of you know, I have PCOS. Learning how to deal with various aspects of this syndrome has been a journey for sure. Its still not over, but I *think* things are going in the right direction. Anyway, I was aware of Soulcysters. I signed up and have read lots over the last year. I really may have benefited more had I participated and really got involved in the board more. Instead I just lurked periodically. Usually I was searching for more information to try and cope with some hormonal catastrophe I was experiencing. Most of the time I try to deny my situation. I try to pretend that I don't have a metabolic issue at play in my weight loss and overall health. My friend found a related site called Fitcyster. Its a branch off of soulcysters. Its really focused on the fitness side of things- the EXACT thing I have been wanting. I wanted to find a group of women that could relate to the reality of PCOS but still had goals to be fit and healthy. I have requested to be a part of this group and I hope that I will be allowed to join. The weight loss part of this journey is so pivitol to me managing my symptoms. I know the basics and even most of the details. The inspiration of successful women and those who are struggling, fighting and succeeding in the quest for health will be so helpful. I've been trying to do this on my own. I've tried to deny that my situation is real. It is real and having a specific support system means so much.
I absolutely love and adore all my Co-Diva and blog friends. I am not seeking a replacement for you!! I am just seeking to add a more specific support system to my already wonderful friends. :)
I am hoping to gain more knowledge and learn from other women's experiences. 2010 is my year to shine. I am committing to a lifetime and lifestyle of health. 2010 is just the beginning. ;)
Now for the nugget of truth. I found this on the Fitcyster site: An article from the Dayton Daily News.
Simply gritting teeth and using willpower might work for a while, the long-term weight losers say, but eventually they'll need coping skills for when the willpower runs out. Ultimately, Eshbaugh says, losing weight comes down to the things a person will do for himself. “Willpower is what you won't do.”
Fun Morning- official song of the day and big butts
This was shared by Becca- originally found on Hardbody.com. LOVE this!!

The text reads:
My butt is big and round like the letter C and then thousand lunges have made it rounder but not smaller. And that’s just fine. It’s a space heater for my side of the bed. It’s my ambassador. To those who walk behind me, it’s a border collie that herds skinny women away from the best deals at clothing sales. My butt is big and that’s just fine. And those who might scorn it are invited to kiss it.
Oh yeah. My booty is big and I'm working on getting it tighter and rounder.
And for my musical moment- the OFFICIAL Song of the Day:
GUNG - HO DIETING
Just click on the link, click the video and read the lyrics. Do it. DO IT! Its too fun to pass up and I promise you'll be singing it all day. :)
So much goodness in the morning... I love it!
New Playlist, 16 weeks out & push ups
Week Four, Day Three 100 Push Ups Challenge
Set One: 23
Set Two: 28
Set Three: 23
Set Four: 23
Max Set: 36
Total: 133 !
Nothing like a new play list to spice things ups. :) I've got a kick-ass list now. Totally pumped me up for the whole workout. This was overdo for sure. In no particular order:
Love Game – Lady Gaga
Poker Face - Lady Gaga
Misery Business- Paramore
Listen to Your Heart- Edmee Techno remix
Paint It Black – Rolling Stones
Let It Rock - Kevin Rudolf
Boom Boom Pow- Black Eyed Peas
I Gotta Feeling – Black Eyed Peas
Wrong Way – Sublime
Baby Did A Bad, Bad Thing- Chris Isaak
Welcome to Paradise- Green Day
Turning Japanese- Incubus
Hot N Cold- Katy Perry
Dani California- RHCP
Give It Away – RHCP
Runnin’ Down a Dream- Tom Petty
I Like the Way You Move- Bodyrockers
What You Waiting For- Gwen Stefani
Womanizer- Britney Spears
Toxic- Britney Spears
My Prerogative- Britney Spears
ighter- Christina Aguilera
Rebel Yell- Billy Idol
Butterfly- Crazytown
You Spin Me Right Round- Dead or Alive
Inside Out- Eve 6
Private Eyes – Hall & Oates
Are You Gonna Be My Girl- Jet
My Sharona- The Knack
Here It Goes Again- OK Go
She’s Got the Look – Roxette
Livin’ La Vido Loca – Ricky Martin
Hazy Shade of Winter- The Bangles
Wild, Sweet, Cool- The Crystal Method
Magic Carpet Ride (techno remix) – The Crystal Method
We’re Not Gonna Take It- Twisted Sister
Bust A Move- Young MC
Take It Off- The Donnas
Out of My Hands- The Donnas
Rock the Casbah – The Clash
16 weeks out as of Saturday. Not sure how I'll do, but I'm not stopping. I'm going to push through hard and try to drop 10lbs by Christmas. Things are going to be a little rough at work. We are short staffed for Christmas season. No worries though. I'm sure I can still get my food in.
One thing I am working on is asthma control. One thing that happens is with hormonal changes, asthma symptoms change. During my period, my asthma is worse. So in addition to headaches, bloating and cramps, its hard to breathe. Nice. So I am using breathe right strips, 2 inhalers and drinking loads of water. I can't do much more. At night I have taken an antihistamine occasionally to help with the crazy congestion. January I can go back to the doctors and get my new plan of attack for hormones. For now, its just keep taking my vitamins, calcium and magnesium and staying on plan. I'm fighting the pain today with the headache and cramps. My energy levels are up today and I'm using that to my advantage. I have my workouts in and I'm going to clean and decorate for Christmas. I made a wreath last night. :) I'm feeling more fesitive today. :)
After Thanksgiving Thoughts
Family holiday times are often a bag of mixed emotion for me. For those of you lucky enough to really get along with your family- feel blessed! So much has changed over the years and family gatherings aren't what they could be.
I did very well with food. I had small samplings of food. I just didn't want to gorge. Food really had no power over me. My aunts tried to make me eat all their foods. The only real indulgence I had was green bean casserole. Its been a family tradition for... as long as I've been alive... maybe longer. ;) It brings back memories of when things were lighter and happier. And it tastes good, too. I don't feel the slightest bit guilty. It was a good day.
My body is definitely going through something. I woke up yesterday with a headache, swollen hands and a backache that has since radiated up to my neck. I'm staying the course with my food plan. I am taking a rest day today for my workouts. I'm in quite a bit of pain. Head to lower back... I don't know why... headache I get. The only thing I can think of is maybe the push ups? I really worked hard to push through the sets. Maybe I strained too much and pulled my back and neck?
I really just want to sleep with a heating pad all day. Instead I am off to work on this lovely Black Friday. I didn't have to open, so I close instead. Not looking forward to it really. But I should be thankful I have a job. I hope the day isn't too crazy. :) Hope my back is better by tomorrow. I need to get back to my workouts.
Thoughts, Sprints, Pushups Oh My!
Thoughts.... Just a quick recap of what I wrote on the diva board this morning:
"I am really over this weirdo plague feeling I have. lol Seriously. I am tired of being unwell. I want to say thanks to everyone who supports me and offers guidance. I really appreciate it!!! I used to be tough. I could fight through anything- sickness, turmoil... I used to have amazing resolve. Nothing was getting in my way. Now I find that my self esteem has taken such a big hit being a lard-butt and all. I guess I need to shift my thinking, eh? I am NOT my body. I am who I am regardless. I just want my exterior to reflect my interior -- which it does at the moment- stress = fatty me. So, I've reduced a big source of stress. Its time. I'm going to keep on trucking."
I am done with being unwell. Really. If I don't get myself back to my center I'm going to be in real trouble. I love my mom dearly, but I don't want to be her. I don't want high cholesterol, depression, obesity, heart trouble, gall bladder issues, etc. Diabetes is a real risk for me. Its in my family, I have PCOS and insulin resistance. Diabetes is just hanging around the corner, waiting to jump me in a dark alley. I don't have the time nor the will to deal with that. I DO NOT want it. This has been a long battle. I will overcome. I will succeed. Each day that I make the right choices is another day towards health and another day away from health crisis. I'm on the right road. I just need to deal with crisis my body is going through now. My hormones ARE a hot mess. I'm elminating as many external factors as I can- plastics, preservatives- the hidden ones, etc. I am going off BC again. My current pill isn't working correctly anyway... hopefully I can handle the ride. Its kind of like a drug addict going through crazy withdrawl. My body is gets all stupid... it is now anyway... I'm just praying we can fly straight sooner than later.
Week Four Day Two , 100 Push Ups Challenge
Set One: 20
Set Two: 25
Set Three: 20
Set Four: 20
Max Set: 32!
Total: 117!
Its tough getting past 20 sometimes. Can't wait until I can get to 100 in a row! Wowy!
