This is a journey

So this time around on my quest for health and weight loss (fat loss), I am finally realizing that this is a journey, a process. I am not going to accomplish my goals in a few months-- and that is not only okay, but it is great! I am where I am for reasons. I am slowly uncovering the the path that lead me to this point while I make a new path. This journey is about me rising from the ashes like a Phoenix. Every 1000 years, the Phoenix willing burns itself to ash so that it can rise again- new, refreshed and untainted.
 From Jill Brown of Singlemindedwomen.com:

The Phoenix is a Chinese mythological bird that lives for 1,000 years. It is a symbol of opportunity, opulence, and immortality. It is also a symbol of resurrection. For at the end of its 1,000 year life cycle – it builds its own burning funeral pyre and sacrifices itself. The Phoenix is burned to ashes in the fiery flames. But out of ashes arises a new, brilliant incarnation. The newly resurrected bird is then free to fly away for a fresh 1,000 year life cycle.
There are several things I like about this legend that I think we can all learn from:
1)      The Phoenix recognizes when its current incarnation is up. It doesn’t fight to remain the bird it is, resisting the change ahead. No. It openly, happily and in full willingness builds its own pyre to start the transformation process
2)      The Phoenix commits itself fully to the fire. It doesn’t hop in, say “Damn it’s hot!” and then fly back out deformed and on fire. It gives itself fully to the process, trusting that its current incarnation is complete. It trusts itself to the process of being reduced to ashes in order to start fresh
3)      From the ashes, from the most basic state of itself, but still from the core parts of itself – it rises again as a new and beautiful bird

 I love our team name from Lean Eating- Iron Phoenix .

 

 I am done jumping out of the fire when it gets to hot. I've had to weather some tough heat and pressure so far during this journey. Eating S-L-O-W-L-Y is hard when you are used to inhaling your food. Not making lots of physical progress is hard when you do your best to be compliant on your program. Really, I am just building on a foundation. Layer after layer, strong and positive habits are being built while the old, useless ones crumble away. 

I am so very happy that I have chosen to take this journey and trust my guide. Precision Nutrition and my coach Krista are amazing. They really DO know what they are doing. My lack of trust doesn't mean someone or something isn't right. It just means I am afraid to trust. I am getting better and I haven't taken the wheel back. I have placed my faith in their knowledge and even though I am scared at times, I know I am on the right path.