Day One is always a good day. Fresh start, new program. It always feels good to me. It feels like I get a new chance to make my dreams and goals happen. On the down side, it means pictures. I hate taking pictures and measurements. I know I will be proud of the changes I make but UGH!
It hurts to look at where I am. I have to accept that I let myself go, that I was hurting and the only way I made myself feel better was with food. I have to accept that I hid away, slept a lot and that meant not exercising much at all. It hurts to face the pains that brought me to this place, but its okay. I'm safe and and filled with hope. My current state of being is only temporary. I will change my body with proper nutrition and exercise. I will also love it for keeping me safe, being strong enough to carry the extra baggage when my mind and heart couldn't.
Today is DAY ONE of an awesome opportunity. I GET TO make healthy choices. I GET TO be positive. I GET TO track my progress from this point forward. And one day I will GET TO be an inspiration hopefully to someone else. I GET TO use my weight loss and health building to encourage others and earn income while doing it. Today, I start a new chapter that will lead to many more positive chapters in my life!
My SUPER YUMMY ViSalus shake this morning was an Eggnog Shake. I used a raw egg in it (I guess I've never been afraid of that....) pumpkin pie spice, almond milk, ice cubes and 2 scoops of Vi-Shape powder. It was SOOO fantastic and filling!
Chest- 41" / 38" (across breasts / above)
Waist- 31" ( this one is particularly painful!)
Hips/Butt- 46" / 48"
Thighs- widest and above knee - 30" / 21"
I am resisting the urge to bawl my eyes out and begin a tirade of hateful self flagellation. Instead I am saying thanks to my body for the good blood work I had, for not failing me despite my failing to care for it properly and for protecting me the best way it knew how. The transformation and healing have begun. I can't wait to post the end results on Day 91. You won't see pics until then!
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